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I think most of the time I have no discipline. I know it is much more higher
than the average person however. But I have been trained as an American citizen to have a short attention span.

I have always thought of a movie where the camera would not change angles at all. Or maybe once or twice. Like a camera on one table or something. And people would just sit there and eat. And it wouldn't be so much about the dinner. Maybe the people could just be sitting around not doing anything. Something like that. Or a park bench. And it wouldn't be about a bunch of intellectual conversation either. Linklater or whatever does a lot of that. That it is almost what I like but it is so drawn out with emotional and intellectual dribble drabble. I'm sorry but most excuse me nobody speaks like that. Words don't come together so eloquently all the time. Like in a damn book or movie. I hate that about them. They all become this alter world and because we see it all the time we think that that is how things should be. And this is how we think we talk. Have you ever recorded yourself and realized what a fucking idiot you are? We don't talk well none of us do unless we have thought about it and have some speech written for us like the fuck of a president we have. He didn't even write it and he can't even read it off the big screen he has. And anyway why does the television screen need to change so much anyway. There are like 2 seconds before each screen change.

A couple weeks ago I was really depressed. I blamed it all on Girl but it
wasn't it was me but anyway I really got addicted to tv tele television vision. It is television vision because I would get so that I had no patience in anything I did. And after a while I started noticing it was because I was getting used to watching tv. That nothing makes the mind seem more preoccupied even though it is not. Do you know what I mean? I mean they give you just enough in 2 seconds that you can focus in but then it changes and you have another 2 seconds. You have to keep refocusing. And you pay attention because you have to because you won't be able to read what is going on. Close your eyes sometime during one of those action movies that have nothing in them but action. And there really isn't that much action at all it is all because of the screen changes. So from now on notice the screen changes and don't be tricked by those bastards. Because anyone who manipulates me in any way is a fucking bastard. Would you like to be manipulated every fucking second?

And that is why reading is so good for you. You could read shit and it would still be better than watching tv. You have to sit there and concentrate on words. It takes such a level of involvement and it trains you to be more focused and such.